Three-hundred-nineteenth Post

i like punishment. i embrace what i deserve
days of it. maybe weeks of it......

i wish things would culminate and then i would go back to my old self of self-mutilation
i could then break down and cry
and live in despair. maybe for a while now
and feel sad and hurt because i miss it
it activates what i do best. to feel :\

it sucks badlie. i so want to be hurt
hurt me, please

.....................................................................................

headache. like a real one. my head feels cramped. ~.~
maybe information overload. @@ it strains and hurts

)'; Zeit vergeht

cardiac arrest

ha ha

hammer me down and pick me up and stroke me on the head and push me away and kick me and pick me up and i will accept it and i don't mind how many times you hit me
as long as in the end, you'll want me......
i will be your ______ dog, willing to undergo any form of stress
as long as in the end, i had a little place in your heart
which you will treasure. and you would think of me now and then
and wish that i would see you again
some day............
the invoked sadness. the invoked tears

ha
Samuel

Labels: 10junebreak