i always write my problems out... if onlie you could see what i wrote x(
talk to me, will you? please?...
my chest hurtssssss
there's a little samuel living inside me...... so palpable many at times he feels hurt many at times "growing up" means threatening to kill him many at times he cries
i cant do anything. i'm useless i cant save myself my back hurts my stomach hurtss x( gastric, perhaps, or something else
imagining for a year and more alreadyyyy pleaseee i beg you to come backk
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dont knowww might you be studying already but i beg of you to come backkk
it was heartwrenching, you couldnt come with me you told me you had a girl, youfher, and you enjoy it it sucks. fucking sucks. you said you enjoy it like you enjoy living on the edge
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, please forgive me i will do anything
i beg you, it was hard for me to understand i feel so apprehensive everytime x( i crave for your company too i suppose you're the only person i can really confide in, turn to you wont hit on my shame, will you?
I saw people dance and it was sooooooo cooooool! I know you like to dance, I wished you were here because I know you'd really enjoy yourself here that's true, it's no lie...... but where are you now?
honestly, fear grips me everytime i wish to talk to someone better than me so scaredddddddddd.................. hais
thankfullie it's saturday <3 i can rest...... x) wish people would talk to me. like seriouslie. like i will appreciate you a lot ):
God bless ~
Samuel
Sunday, 13 February 2011 @22:48
Three-hundred-forty-eighth Post
i remember when i was 11 or 12...... i hung a sad face epitome of kiddie hurt
you know? it's like your facial muscles just force a sad face you can't change it no matter what.
geez, i felt hurt then. i felt excluded. i even tried to run away and throw away the gift but the gate was locked......
sadlie, i hung a sad face again today geez... sucha fool weiß nicht, was mir helfen kann. das Ende? honestlie speaking......
goodnite x( umm, happie memorie, helping you out of victoria theatre?... Samuel
was reallie tired... but had to visit relatives i realised i have new underwear o_o and it feels comfrotable. LOL
so first stop, we went to my aunt's place...... ^^ stupid nephew...... freaking violent. he threw plastic bowling pins right at me. and also a compacted soccerball. no sense of pain sia. in the end, i looked at him seriouslie and said “走开。走开！走开！！！” then he looked at me with an angry sad face >:[ LOL and left me alone......
VICTORY!!!!!!
i went down for a stroll...... :\ i saw a cat...... so i played with it for a while it had yellow eyes O: reallie YELLOW eyes o_O it was kinda windie...... saw a familie celebrating chinese new year...... after 30 mins or so, i went back up...... played toy cars with my nephew called lele so cute, he ^^
afterwards, we all left...... for auntie debbie's house had some food over there ^_^ and we even 捞鱼生 ;D there were Tung Lok staff reciting the prosperity speech while putting the seasoning and all...... you know? O: we also went the the 4th floor...... played 1 min of foosball the balconie was nice O: quite windie :\ geez..........................
last stop, we went to some relative's house...... it was on the 19th floor...... i think verie, verie windie O: i wish to feel it everyday :\ there was a cute dog ;D < DDDDDD 너무 귀엽잖아요! that's me ;D i superpetted it @@ so cute >< it superlicked me too xD i super-sayang-ed it tooooooo hais
i then went down to the nearby playground...... blow wind and observed my surroundings. thinking about things i saw something amazing. could you see it too?
i went back up after an hour, perhaps accidentallie got startled by the dog and nudged him >.< i forgot about him/her ): kinda didnt care me le...... or maybe he was hurt ): anyway...... i will miss you, doggie
dad drove us home...... and i'm home watching 赤壁之战
wanna know what the condition of my toe is now? here you go x)
and... truth be told, i'm in real need of somebody right now............ hais x(
i am feeling tireddd a little brain dead... that sort
i lay down on my bed, thinking about some things the regrettable past and some other adjective i have forgotten
my hair is out of shape again! you know, when you sractch your scalp too much or something and it... kinda sticks out o_O it's totallie disgusting so sad :@
not to forget, i have to bathe and clean mah hamster cages......
on a brighter note, i sold some ice-dessert thing to wanxin yesterday during the food bazaar ^_^ yay ^^v
listening to Thunder by Boys Like Girls right now......
which reminds me of a dude who played it on his phone's loudspeaker near the lift lobby of my flat were you waiting for someone? (:
i have Subungual Hematoma T.T it hurt a lot now much less. but every now and then, I feel some "bubbling" sensation in my toe maybe it's the gradual seperating of the nail from the nailbed o_O
so imma wear sandals to school for CHINESE NEW YEAR CELEBRATIONS D:
Take time to realise. that your warmth is. crash-ing down on in...this signifies a song change in case you don't know >:D i realised. my acne scars are like permanent. T.T so sadddddddddddd T.T no longer flawless skin T.T at least my complexion has gotten better ^_^ no more rocky road. LOL
did you know that ROCKY ROAD is actuallie a FOOD ITEM? :@ it tastes reallie good, it's like hardened chocolate-coated marshie-mallow @@ i tasted it when i was in Perth 4 years ago... tasted reallie good ^_^ wish they had that in Singapore...
this is one way how rocky road looks like anyway, i miss you. i hope you would talk to me :\ 관심이 있어.
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Samuel Tan Yuan Han
4th January 1993
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Earn $1000 in 2012 (27 Mar 13) Have five tutees LOL (10 Aug 14) Pick up a new language (25 Nov 12) Dye mah hair ^^ (?? Feb 12)
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