Four-hundred-eighteenth Post

hey~

i needa submit a photo for my universitie concession ezlink card online by the end of this month...... been dragging. been dragging, too, my learning of korean. not been reading the books...... sigh.

neeway, been looking at photobooth. you know the application in apple computers? hehe
well, been looking at it lor...... xD
i admire my looks...... feel like taking a photo but reality doesn't meet my expectations. the photos come out like crap ):

did you know? i type ): to show a sad face when i don't necessarilie mean it, and :( to reflect an actual sadness in me
typing :( on msn gives an emoticon anyway, so there is a symbolism alreadie. ......
yet, looking at any emoticon sideways brings out an actual, tangible emotion, i find.


the product of thirty minutes. hehe
i've been wanting to take a photo with this shirt... but i can't seem to capture my face nicelie
so i just took a photo of the shirt



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Samuel

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Four-hundred-seventeenth Post: Happy birthday, Steven!

Happy birthday to you~
happy birthday to you~
happie birthday to steven~~~
happie birthday to you ;D

生日快乐！

Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag!

お誕生日おめでとございます！


생일 축하합니다!

Selamat hari jadi!

Happie birthday to you too, steph :P HAHA. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Happy sexy 18, the both of you :X
now, steven, you can enter clubs and charm the butt out of everyone :x

you know? i always pray for you. i pray that you are well, i pray your familie is well, i pray you aren't engaging in ...... that sort of thing... as for your heroic efforts, i wouldn't like you to put yourself in danger, but i can't stop you from helping others, so i pray for your safety......
i pray for your emotional well-being. maybe you're with ace, The One?...
it makes me feel envious and sad, though. i never got intimate with anyone special... and i hope you know i mean it in the emotional way, primarilie
geez, i wish i could REALLIE find someone like you ... it's virtuallie IMPOSSIBLE.

i wish i had made better choices. the world has evolved a lot. we have grown a lot. at age 19, i've gone to bangkok (with my mom) to visit pim! xD we've seen the rise of the memes... new, fascinating songs... new possibilities emerge. i wish i could have experienced all these new things with you.

yesterday (11 may), i went to NUS University Health Centre for an assessment...... the psychiatrist asked a few questions about my life...... he asked why i wanted to kill myself the 2nd time (in 2009)... well... relationship...... with a male person...
he was kind. he asked if it was a steady relationship o_O and i was speechless LOL. he asked too if i was still in contact with that guy. i said no... i kinda felt an urge to say that that guy — my boyfriend — has his birthday tomorrow...... i still think of him. alas, i didn't......

you know what? i was at the serangoon mrt station walking up the escalator in large strides and i misstepped D: my right big toe ground (past tense of grind) into the serrated edge D:
it bled terribly...... never had i seen so much blood :@ and my toe looked disgusting. my sandals were stained......
the nurses at the health centre helped dress my wounds and bound my toe up o_o like a mummie LOL. and i declined to have the tetanus vaccination because i didn't want to spend money...... it seems that since my open wound was in contact with METAL, it could have contracted some virus...... and i could get tetanus :( it's some disgusting illness...... look it up, steven! @@
sigh...... hopefullie mom WILL bring me to the doctor tomorrow for some evaluation or something. she said she would.

perhaps i should share more about myself.
academicallie, seems like i've performed excellentlie ^^ and i just got this letter like a few hours ago from my school! they want me to attend their award presentation day 2012 :P



look! 7 Distinctions! Distinction means A grade for standard subjects and Distinction for higher-level subjects... :P
look at the invitation card! cutelie drawn :P and it contains so manie strange chinese characters i've never seen before LOL.

i went to a club for the first time this year...... i've been learning korean O: i'm kinda at the intermediate level, but the speaking component is still poor...... hard to pronounce some words together :@ you know? T_T

i've gotten my hair dyed :D i wish to achieve your hair colour...... resembling the one in the beautiful picture with dunkin' donuts. but i couldn't T.T anyway, i feel like having blondeeeeeeeeeeee :@ G-DRAGON, YEA :D

neeway, i wish we could re-establish contact with each other...... at least that :\ maybe i won't get to see you, but i'll wait...... pleaseeeee, at least keep in contact :( will you msn me again? :\ in case you don't remember, my msn is spikedog123@hotmail.com...
do you have a facebook now? ......
are you still on crunchyroll? do you recognise a picture on my blog's sidebar?
and as part of experiencing new things together, do you use an iphone too? had i not been so stupid, we could have communicated via whatsapp now......

will you forgive me by letting me talk to you again? )'; if you can write another letter which i will never ever untreasure, you can write it to my address as given in the picture of the letter, okay ?

i just needa declare: you make me have no questions about my sexuality. you make me gay and i will be proud of it x)

well, no more emo-ing from me now...... xD



i was actuallie looking for a decent happie birthday song and i encountered this. if you don't mind withstanding an explosion of corniness and LOLOLOL, play the following song bah :x



enjoy your day, mr salt! :)


i love you! x)
Samuel 1:25 AM

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