Four-hundred-fifty-fourth Post

yesterday, i had work at new york new york and GUESS WHAT?

i was 15 minutes late HAHAHAHA (no prize for guessing)

yesterday was the day i screwed up a lot in my waitering HAHAHA

one, i forgot to place additional orders from customers. two, i didn't take back the cutleries and serviettes when only 2 people were dining at a table for four. three, customers began ordering food from parts of the menu i haven't memorised. so, naturally, i didn't know what food was being pushed out of the kitchen to be served -_- HAHAHA the chef was like "WHAT IS THIS?" LOLOLOL

oh yes, i went to work with reallie puffie hair and the outlet manager and full-time waiter were like ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! "go out with your friend in the citie like that, can, but when you come to work... *bunch of work-related stuff*" :( but in the end they didn't say anything further about it HAHA

there were two guys who came to dine (around my age or younger) and when i was taking orders for them, they kept on asking me detailed questions like "what is this... chicken mushroom mozzarella melt?" then i had to check with ate emily and then they asked further questions on other dishes... then ate just came over to take over HAHA

THEN HOR, ate told me to get two iced water for them (because they told ate they wanted iced water) and when i brought the iced water over, they said they wanted warm water .__. they are screwing with me lah LOL

when i needed to refill water for them, i made sure i asked them if they wanted to refill first before i brought over the jug -_- otherwise... LOL

neeway, i had this for lunch :B or kinda staff lunch o_O



:D

there was so much rice and dishes for staff lunch that i reallie stuffed myself ._.


neeway, the dishwasher ladie gave me a fish :B blop blop! (fish sound)



HAHAHA

and then, when it was closing time, some customer forgot to take her dabao along or the manager just asked me to take it back... SOOOOOO, WHAT A CATCH TODAY!


but honestlie not verie delicious lah when it's not warmed up LOL :X
i reallie got scolded on my way out T.T coz actuallie i'm not supposed to bring food out and also a menu out LOL (i wanted to memorise it at home but...... candy crush......)

yea. i took 101 back and while i was using my phone (white iphone 4s), some old uncle beside me started talking to me and asking me if i could find out what is wrong with his white samsung phone :X and i couldn't get it started...... then when 101 reached hougang central, some old mother (probablie 40 years coz she had white and grey hair) boarded the bus with a reallie small girl (probablie younger than 5 years old) and this mother was reallie SCREAMING and SHOUTING at 130 decibels at the girl. she was shouting at the girl to shut up (coz she was crying) and she told the girl in chinese that "there was no use in giving birth to her" and even said "cb" -____- seriouslie. the louder she shouted at her to shut up, the more the girl retaliated and the more she cried. the old mother even said she'd throw the girl off the bus.

damn sad. such a conscious girl but she's unloved by this old woman. i was just thinking if she'd turn to outlets outside when she gets older... who knows if she will look for bad guys or even turn lesbian because of her childhood trauma. sad......


alright. i should start memorising the menu now =x otherwise i got a scolding for nothing yesterday night ._.

Samuel

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Four-hundred-fifty-third Post

i've been living verie negativelie for a few years now. it has to do with how i perceive myself.

EVERY SINGLE TIME i feel hurt emotionally by other guys or am rejected, i never fail to say "i'm ugly".
every single time.

i used to be so good-looking. honestlie i look like crap now. i look like a drug addict. like.



#truesadstory

i don't know. maybe i've brainwashed myself into thinking that most people are superficial. i know that character and maturity also appeal to people. character and maturity are idiosyncratic and should not be looked down upon (sometimes they can be extreme lah), so i don't think they are a real problem. the real problem therefore is the looks.

let's face it.

if i LOOKED like a freaking KAWAII NE!!!!!!!!!!! korean pop star or anyone who is a reallie good-looking enough, surelie the treatment i get from those sissy, ugly bitches would have been different. i mean, who would want to pass up the golden opportunity to get together with a OMG SHO DAMN GOOD-LUKING GAI for your own arrogance? seriouslie. ugly sissy, i don't even want to get into a relationship with you. even a mere friendship is hard to form because you're so unkind towards me. why? because i am not good-looking. yucks. when i think of how you look yourself

i've moved on from being judgmental of how people look. i admit though that there's a devil residing in my mind that derides the looks of some people. it's not a rhetoric excuse, but it's an actual "devil" in the religious sense. it is corrupting me );

i don't judge you based on your looks. instead, i now judge you based on your personality, your treatment towards me, the people around you and far away from you, your principles, your values, your heart. there's a difference between being frank and being unkind. would you rather be overly negative even though you may speak the "ugly truth" as if it reallie existed or i don't know and therefore hurt our relationship, or would you mediate your unkind words and translate them into something that is not necessarilie more pleasing to the ear but is KIND and still has the frankness and truth. what do you value? your pride or friendship?

i have my own life and emotions and i don't need to subject myself to such an unencouraging environment or relationship. i won't let myself be stunted in the positive development of my well-being. truth, i may have to face, but definitelie not your unkindness.


neeway, what attracts people? good looks, niceness and etc.. good looks aren't the absolute factor. consider: a handsome mediacorp teen actor in real life disses his fans. just how repulsive is that? looks aren't the sole factor in the overall attractiveness of a person. suppose we have a kind-hearted and good-looking chap who treats you like a princess but his bane is his advocacy of paedophilia. his morals are wrong. it's best to stay away from him.

yea. i'm giving extreme examples to illustrate the multifaceted constitution of attractiveness.


anyway, while it hurt to be rejected, i'm glad i can still be friends with him ^_^ because he's reallie handsome, smart and nice to me! like TO ME, STYH. of course he's not that "nice" ALL of the time, but i'm glad there are certain times for sure that he IS nice. seriouslie, good-looking, smart and nice? what more can i ask for? NOTHING MORE! okay. maybe emotional affection HAHA
sad that i won't be seeing him for two weeks though :( and sad that he doesn't want me to call him "형"... well, "형" actuallie means something to me. i don't call people korkor easilie... x(
Samuel

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Four-hundred-fifty-second Post

hey! (:

yesterday at work, it was a rather emotional ride for me...... well, here's why.


today (yesterday, i mean), there was a couple who came to dine. well, the guy...... was reallie handsome. smooth, dark complexion. cool (like reallie cool) demeanor. sweet smile. nice hair. kinda looked like dechathorn but surelie not an ass.
he was reallie charming... when he smiled at me...... it looked so good, you know?!?! LOL

i was kinda afraid the girl (probablie his gf) would become cautious of me...... HAHA.
anyway, it reallie got me thinking...... that i was reallie uglie and unattractive. my sideburns are a little too thick. my flawless face has been disfigured. i can never even be handsome enough to attract people. i'm no longer good-looking......
definitelie freaking unattractive to people like them...... sad.
sooooooooooo, i was reallie feeling depressed while working.

before this, i arrived at NYNY at 1+ pm. and then i'm suddenlie told there's a "split shift" i.e. i'm not to work from 3 pm to 6 pm. i was reallie put off because firstlie, i hate that i'd have nothing to do from 3-6 and i'd be wasting precious time and secondlie, i was not informed AT ALL about such a thing that just compounded to the first point. i was reallie -______- dafoog
my mood was rather ruined (also because i'm not treated verie well at work by ......) and so i sms-ed the outlet manager (who was not present) to complain...... in the end, it was arranged that i was to restart work at 5 pm instead. oh well. in the end, i spent my time memorising some sections of the menu...... which i did successfully ^^

in all that depression, i was wishing so much inside while my heart ached that there was something i could look forward to at the end of the day. i was thinking of my two exbf-es (i've only had four, and i am never ever talking about my first two). but, no, i could never see them again. there was nothing to look forward to.

all i can ever do is to play out my dreams in my thoughts.

anywaylah there was a large group of customers today who were made up of some singaporeans and some koreans. there was this korean man (old uncle) who was like ordering in a funny way HAHA. he wanted to order one NYNY Party Platter (which is reallie huge) and tiger beer so he was like saying 아이스, 아이스, 원, 원! HAHA

so while ate (pronounced as AH-tay which means auntie in tagalog) anna and i were with them taking orders, i asked 하나만? and the korean uncle looked at me and asked "what?" so i repeated... and he's like surprised LOL! the rest of the customers (12 of them in total) were kinda surprised O.O a singaporean chinese man asked "wah you can speak korean ar?" so i said "yea, a little..." then he said "good good" with a thumbs up HAHAHA XD

one korean man also asked me if i could speak O.O and i think he said good good too :D

thanks~

when ate anna was unclear about what the korean uncle wanted to order, i went back and said "손님, 이것은 하나만?... -pointing at NYNY party platter on the menu- and he repeated 손님 xD

and then, the korean uncle wanted to order TWO NYNY party platters instead D: so he's telling me 두, 두! while the others were like "NO NO NO, ONE! ONE!" and the korean uncle was insisting "TWO, TWO!"... LOLOLOL. it was reallie a sight to behold xD
in the end, i took his order lor. xD

HAHAHA, it's good to be multilingual ^_^ you never know which strangers you can impress and get a praise from ^_^

yea, after a long time, it was time to serve their desserts...... so i served the first banana split and i also wanted to serve the second one while saying something grand like "hello! banana split 왔습니다!!!!!" but ...... was like -_-'l| duwan me to serve ): seriouslie ....................................

anyway, i bowed to one of the korean men when he left ^_^ and also greeted 안녕히 가세요~ to the korean woman and she replied with a smile "네, 감사합니다~" ^_^


yeap. end of story. for the staff meal at the end of the day, it was a half rotisserie spring chicken code 803 ^_^ it wasn't bad :) rather succulent ^^



alright. in conclusion, i'm glad i have made some improvements in waitering :) i can take orders (from customers) better now. i also sms-ed the outlet manager to apologise if i've made him feel uncomfortable and he replied that it's not a problem, that my concerns are his duties......

-touched-

soooooo, i just walked to the bus stop after kovan station and took 101 home...

reached home and had steamboat dinner with my parents ^^

now, i'm going to sleep :)

valentine's day is coming! i reallie wish to ask my crush out (some handsome year 4 chemistry major from my korean lecture group) and i've sent him an e-mail too...... but he hasn't replied to my last one. he... doesn't seem keen on eating with me and a few times alreadie he hasn't been too nice to me... he's rather nice, though, when he teases me in korean class. sigh...... i wish my spoken korean was as good as his!

:( unrequited bah. but no matter, i won't think so much about it. i'll just imaginee and imaginee as always x) because i know i'm never good-looking enough for anyone i'm interested in.

Samuel

_{p.s. i wonder if i should become even more outspoken or just revert to being quiet like the handsome guy today......}

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