Three-hundred-eighty-second Post

hello~


sobsob pimple on my left cheek... or acne... as in a real, long-staying pimple condition.


life's been great, not including the time spent on revising of course... :P


great insofar as nothing reaaaallllllie bad has happened.


i've made some observations latelie, and i suppose commenting on them here is the safest avenue...... of course, i don't want the whole world to know i am soooooo bad :x


now, i noticed there have been a few people who have been posting numerous posts on facebook. even sharing pictures with poignant words. it's...... a little !@#~!@~!#


i wish they can just STOP IT. i don't wanna unsubscribe because i would still like to know what they are up to, how they are ^^ in the caring way.


next, i suppose some people are...... not reallie as nice as you think. consciouslie ignoring you when you don't accede to their request. or reallie being unsupportive. it is as if they do not mean well at all. sigh...... of course, i'll still be nice towards them even though it is not reciprocated fullie
of course, perception of non-verbal communication is suspect. we never know how they mean it. so...... always take the benefit of the doubt and see the good in people ^_^ it's the way of progress!


on the other hand, thank God for nice people ^_^ the supportive ones. thanks for your kind words and innate genuineness when interacting with me. God bless!!


okay... i ought to sleep now x) goodnight~


Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-first Post

hey guys~


how are you doing? ^^


i have been playing a game called dragon nest with pim and sarah ^^


it's fun ^^ and i had been neglecting my work D: OH NOESS I DONT WANNA BE A _________ _____


i have the urges sometimes to post things on facebook. of course, to mock and all. then... i don't. i'm withheld by my principles.
other people are ___________________ic, i don't have to be like them.
i'll be myself ^^ at least i suffer the brunt alone
the brunt of the dissatisfaction/displeasure of others, i won't express mine.


something amazing happened just now! my sister and father had a video call with my relatives via my father's iPad and my cousin's MacbookPro i think o_o
it's amazing! a mere ipad... that relativelie thin slab of electronics being able to connect wirelessly and with astounding clarity.


hais..................................... wouldn't it have been nice if we could have communicated that way?......


i had a haircut two days ago...... and i made the hairdresser smile ^^
even as he was washing his hands, he kept on looking at me as i left the shop
of course, i waved goodbye ^^
i'm so nice............ i make people smile ):
i should continue making people smile and happie......


manie people make me smile too. i smile a lot. over the com, that is.
everytime i type an "LOL", i smile. just like you, right? @@


everytime, i imagine that i'd be able to see you again... one day.
my thoughts of you...... about only me and you......
but of course, the realitie is that i have offended your sister, your elder brother, your friends and of course you. even if you'd choose to forgive me, the others probablie won't. i'm sorry, all of you.


....................................................................................


i make myself sad, always.
~.~


i wonder how you're doing, if you're happie with ace, ya know?
i want an ace too...... my heart shocks. freezes.


pain pain x(


and i bet singaporeans can't even match the truthfulness as in ace
i'm guessing...... i'll have to be ...... where you were born.
or am i wrong? where can i get that nice a bunch of people as on crunchyroll?
i haven't been to your crunchyroll...... i'm just afraid. perhaps you have shifted, or maybe you have abandoned it. i just hate to see it. i hate to see these happen.
it just tears at my heart.


but i do have one of your icons as a loyal supporter! <<<



i wish i hadn't been so stupid. so selfish, so childish.
i wish i could have seen then. see as i can see now.
i'd apologise to whoever you want me to
......................................................................................


tired sam. tired sam needs to sleep now...... soon, i mean.
take care, will you?


hughuggg x__x


Samuel

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Three-hundred-eightieth Post

............


i don't denie my emotional attraction towards......
reallie good-looking people...... nice at that.


i don't know......


was i your eye candie for 20 mins? x_x
were you perhaps...... interested in me?
i mean x_x ........................................
..............................................


hmmmmmmmm............................................................




anyway, i'm reallie tired now. have lots to do x)
tomorrow's my first paperrrr. German Oral...... i have memorised most of my script for the presentation portion...... i'm just forgetting conversation skills XDDD!


......korkorrr


Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-ninth Post

hello~


i had a bad experience during my parents' make-up wedding anniversary celebration at nihon mura beside yio chu kang stadium. needless to say, i spoilt everyone's mood.


i definitelie feel overwhelmed. it's past midnight... SO IN JUST ONE MORE DAY, I WILL BE SITTING FOR MY FIRST PAPER FOR THE A LEVELS!


that's TOMORROW! GERMAN ORAL!


i've been having a few practices with Frau Yong...... i can choose to be calm and answer as fluentlie as possible. i have flaws, of course, which i hope wont impede my performance...... still, i need an A for german. after all that hard work i have put in though the learning experience hadnt been as enjoyable as in secondary school :@


i just realised a few mistakes in my document...... but it's not wise to be a perfectionist. it's onlie a small mishap :P so i shall not be so affected by it.

and for my 2nd document, i overshot by 17 words...... that is horrible. LOL.


sigh. i shouldnt be so affected by this :'( sucks. after all, an A is what i want...... sigh. maybe at least a B. because i don't know what crap they will ask during orals, what they will set for compre, listening compre and what strange terms they will use in their essay questions.


i can onlie depend on myself. i should be more independent, especiallie when i'm surrounded by people who dont walk their talk. that is, they are all talk and no action. am i wrong to say that?


overwhelmed, alright. lots of stuff to do -_- time is running out. my main concern is getting a pass for H3, an A for maths, physics and chemistrie...... LOL. what course do i want to get into anyway ~.~
of course, i'll still have to aim high~ that's the way to go!


Samuel God bless us all

Three-hundred-seventy-eighth Post

_{i thought it would be more appropriate posting this here than on facebook...... ya know.
listening to I Gotta Tik Tok Telephone by Joshua Simon}


Have you ever felt tired of thinking of someone?
Have you ever wished you could stop thinking about that person?


Have you ever slept so well because you knew that you have that person, just imagining he or she is beside you, willing to lapse into unconsciousness with you?


I have.


owh...... and i'm feeling sleepie alreadie ~.~


just an update ^_^


Samuel korkor/didi/deardearrrr has gotten for his prelims:


49.5% for GP an E grade


55.2% for Physics a C grade
68.0% for Chemistry a B grade
68.5% for Maths a B grade
69.2% for German a B grade


53.0% for Pharmaceutical Chemistry a Pass grade


an A grade requires at least 70%...... so i'm not that far away!
yet...... I am only confident in Chemistrie...... though generallie speaking, we never know what can happen. sigh......


scared scared ><


alrite...... back to work... lots of it ):


Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-seventh Post

hello~

i recentlie encountered someone's facebook profile

he is reallie good-looking
he seems nice so far, judging from the way he speaks online
and that he has onlie one "Lol." among his whole picture collections oops

he's reallie tall! taller than youuuu xP
yet, not as tall as ........................ -_-'l|


my aim is set. hopefullie when the A levels end, i will look good enough......
become nice enough
and smart enough
and attractive enough

ohhhh noessssss i'm sooooooo ;_____;


i've ever only gotten one person to like me. more than two years ago.
one of the happiest times, of course
every night, i'd imagine momo was beside me and i'd sleep sooooo welllll


a relationship? the shame...... of course not you, momo ;D
well...............................................................................

of course i hold the thought that a real-life first encounter is the best...... i mean, not getting to know through the Web beforehand, but rather through a peer introduction?

but just how? ..........................................................

anyway, it seems like Internet Explorer isn't showing my blog the way i intended
it's meant to be viewed in Firefox now -_-
should i change my blogskin? yet, it's not as if people read this anyway......

hais


i'm interested in knowing you. you, shiro. i dont know how much you'd mind......
still, i am rather busie...... my A levels are in 7 days' time o_O
perhaps after my A levels? ;D hais......

skinship? oops


_{didi-korkor :'(}
Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-sixth Post

i feel comforted knowing that i'm striving towards constant self-improvement
to make myself more attractive to people
and also to match the standards of others
xD

i know i lack a lot. i didnt take care of my bodie in the past, anyway......
so i'm in a mess now.

i hope to match the standards...... i'll have to work hard
.................................................................................

it's gonna take time... though i may be disappointed
it might not matter, since i would have raised my own standards......

_{we all need emotional support, just as we all need attention}

............

from what i have seen as of yet,
............................................ not gonna say

attractiveness...... there are manie causes of it,
definitelie not being spastic. not attractive to me, at least. ask me for a definition
oh....................... i'm actuallie a rather receptive person
if you make that miniscule effort to speak intelligibly (not intelligently) and with intention, i'll definitelie be interested in you in a non-romantic sense at least

being spastic is just the opposite. it's repulsive

it's vexing.

and when someone attractive comes along...... if you just have absolutely nothing but repulsiveness, of course people will move on to satisfie their basic emotional and social needs

...... i feel sorrie, though. i wonder how one can get out of a... truthfully, pathetic state. are your friends able to help you? i hope so, because i don't like seeing people wallow in self-pity, doing absolutely nothing on their own part to effect positive change and in the end, they are still in the same plight. in the end...... they might just take their own lives. it's sad.
please, God, watch over and protect us
Samuel

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Three-hundred-seventy-fifth Post

it's okay if people ignore me intentionallie.

i'm fine.

i wish you well, though

^^ God bless


omggggggg i'm soooooo stressed :P

my wisdom tooth is erupting! it hurts! ):

i had been experiencing withdrawal!
it's painful, alright. mentallie painful, too.

hmm..................................................................................

my results havent been good...... ):
so sad! A levels coming!
in 11 days!!!!!! :'(

mushroom! xD

i hate my coated tongue x10000 Z_Z
beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hmm...... i wanna be as handsome as before O:
remember? ;D

it's gonna be a challenge...... but i'll try ^^

Samuel