my well-being on the whole varies sinusoidally

whenever there's a setback, i break
and i break even more after that.
i break until i reach the nadir
and i always ask God to punish me
to forgive me too

He knows it's hard (?) then again, it's my fault
i think if i were to just give up, things would go uphill on being a sinner
still, i'm reserving a little for you. just for you.
you, momo. you, スティーブン.
how have you been? i hope you have been well.

the only one imbued with the three attractive qualities
the one with the looks, the brains and the heart

i was such a fool.

i can't help it.
if only you could shackle me from evil, keep me unstrayed

you're the person who could read me best. you're the best.
best in every aspect. you beat people by more than a hundred times

please forgive me. i'll do anything you want me to to atone for my mistakes.


i have to go now. please do not forget me completely.
even though it's best that you do

Samuel