Four-hundred-fourteenth Post

OMG blogger has a new look. OMGGGGG ?!?!

LOL. They have this statistics-counter thing which records my blog's pageviews. 9990 pageviews! O.O
but the counting starts from May 2009......
but i still think it's booolsheeet. sigh...... so i think i should reset it! O.O
but as a person with an Input strength...... WHAT TO DO?!

나 어쩌라고?!?!

okay now is 1:30 AM :O been watching youtube videos, Happie Together 3 in particular :3
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
PIMPLE EXPLOSION ON MAH FACE!

plastic surgerie NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO D:

kay.

i suppose i should give an update on myself o_O apart from the predictable thing that happens to me periodicallie...

i went to bangkok with mom :D !!! LOL.
-dontfeellikebloggingaboutitT.T-
well, i bought some clothes, saw some OMGGGG OMG OMG HANDSOME guys :3
and then had seafood *icecreamemoticon*
aber am wichtigsten ist, dass ich Pim getroffen habe :D

AIYA IF YOU WANT TO KNOW, ASK ME IN PERSON :P :P

*icecreamemoticon*

oh no, it's 23rd alreadie :( i needa return my librarie books soon :@

life hasn't been good if you ask me <.< things aren't going coolie. lemme trie now to articulate my thoughts: in german class, one thing i learnt about was the concept of a self-fulfilling prophecie (SFP) an SFP isn't called a self-fulfilling prophecie for no reason. and it's not all fairy-tale.
to illustrate: Suppose we meet someone and because he doesn't look friendly (maybe because he has a crappie long hairstyle and tattoos and we don't find him good-looking), we THINK he isn't friendly and so we JUDGE him then and there and make no effort to change our opinion. since we alreadie think he isn't friendly, we don't smile to him and chat with him activelie, giving one-word replies that reek of disinterest, thereby sending signals of our dislike. now, that person WASN'T originallie unfriendlie. even though he's a polite chap and wants to be friends with us, because of the discouraging signals we send, he GETS AFFECTED and fails to remain friendlie. slowlie, he becomes more unpleasant and officiallie becomes unfriendlie, the way we painted him in the first place.

my point is that things turn out that way because we make it that way. it's not because of "fate" or "chance" or the other party. it's us. we fulfill our own prophecy.

and i think i'm kinda having a SFP. so that's one thing that isn't going coolie for me.

the second thing not going coolie for me is that i think i'm becoming a jerk.
as some people would know, i speak like a total joke sometimes. yet, that sometimes is becoming always.
while it's a playful action that i may dismiss as a fake persona (IT ISN'T REALLIE ME :D), if i do it long enough, it becomes a habit/attitude. it becomes me. i'm changing into a REAL jerk. screw it.

I reallie need Him. i believe He can help me.

i need to slice off my vorpal tongue. vorpal tongue. YET i live in this inconducive environment of inconsistencies, hypocrisy and futility that i need a vorpal tongue to defend myself. yet, is this the result of a self-fulfilling prophecie? because i think the people who make the environment are like that, so i send signals, and they reallie become like that?

confusing.

i need more compassion. i am a noob. i used to quietlie pride myself on having boundless empathy but reallie, now i think i have abysmal empathy. i see so manie pertactic people posting pertactic statuses on facebook, it just makes me want to vomit. geez, guys, being vulgar doesn't make you look cool. and another facebook contact keeps on posting music videos and writing gut-wrenching lyrics to express his NOOBNESS in his failed relationships. Love my ________ BUTT. noobshit. paedoshit.

sigh i've become a monster.

screw my English on this one. perhaps having an open blog won't be good for my prospects

Samuel

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