Four-hundred-sixty-fourth Post

We're all broken people.

so let's just make one another happy.

let's let go of the pride that holds back our compassion
let us truthfullie love (in the emotional sense, not the romantic) one another.
a love that could be ordained by God

......

i feel sad sometimes. by sad, i mean my heart aches. it blisters.
i feel sad that people treat me in certain ways. it's so tangible. i would usuallie give the benefit of the doubt, but i cannot dismiss the possibility of that person reallie being bad.

i learned not to let pride prevent me from establishing good relationships with some people. i've learnt to apologise to the other party sometimes not because i am wrong, but because i value that relationship.
i guess i had learnt it the hard way. steven taught this to me.

what if i told you that i think of my family as i continue living life because i'd rather let my parents be selfish but happy than let myself be the selfish one and hurt them? together with my religion, this is really why i'm not willing to devote myself to what i think i want. this is why i'm not sacrificing myself to the ... life.

i wonder if that community will see me as a betrayer or something. would you not see me as someone who thinks of my family instead? i'm sure steven would.
after all, what can i say about those people? un-family-centred. elitist. hypocritical
~.~ ...... ouch, my vulnerable heart. i know there's a little didi samuel in my heart who has always been yearning for a korkor, and this little samuel has been hurt many times deeply. i, though, protect him and comfort him every time he cries and feels hurt.
i love you, samuel! you're always loved by me! x)

~____~ will you be kind to me, too?

Samuel

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