Four-hundred-eighty-first Post

hey guys.

this week is Reading Week, which means it's a one-week "break" for us to revise for our exams next week, after which we'll be free~~
for five weeks :D

i'm sorrie that i'll probablie not blog about what happened in the past weeks because i'm lehzeh
however, imma still announce that i met up with shao wei :3 he came to nus to visit me and to check out the halloween event in nus with me
i also went out with my KCIG friends and we had nando's at plaza singapura ^^

oh, my hip hop dance class has ended too. it was reallie fun :) i wanna join more classes next semester :3

okay. time for the main point.

i recentlie met someone who resembled steven (to a rather large extent)
good-looking he actually has brown eyes, while you had brown hair
smart although his English is not perfect
nice...... well, not sure about that LOL
he has a past too, albeit different from yours

i remember you once told me that if things hadn't turned out the way they did, perhaps you'd still have been a brat that you always were
you wouldn't have been that mature and thinking person that i knew
somehow, this chap i had got to know recentlie, i think he's like the version of you where things hadn't turned out the way they did
feeling tired..........
you said i'd find someone better. he...... doesn't reallie fit the bill yet
well, he said "fuck you" to me and gave me the finger, albeit in jest as boys would do with friends his age
i was rather offended, but i just endured it. i wish he'd not disrespect me like that. after all, he's... just a kid


sometimes, i wish i could hallucinate. i wish i could perceive as reality that you were with me, being actually here and talking to me, putting your arm around my neck, putting your hand on my shoulder
to perceive as a reality
i know it's mental, but it will make me be able to feel what i would feel if you were genuinely with me
i'm not sure if the people around me would understand what i'm talking about
imagine if in my eyes you were literally present even though it's all in my imagination
in fact, i've been doing that almost every evening that i walk home from the station, just conversing with the air and imagining you're walking with me, except that it wasn't a hallucination
......

anyway, i managed to play l4d2 with him at parklane. we played Hard Rain on Advanced difficulty, and i enjoyed the game :) i'd have enjoyed the game more if i didn't dc so manie times
that reminds me of your playing audition on your laptop, and you disconnected constantly before, right?
what computer are you using now? O:

ahh, i remember we used to play audition together till the wee hours of the morning, talking about things and joking
i miss you, i miss you, i miss you. i miss having those sessions with you

which reminds me, i remember that you said in an sms on the day i was at west coast park waiting to meet you "i love you, i love you, please go back for me?" when you couldn't see me face-to-face eventuallie
never had i known that someone actuallie felt for me genuinelie......
thanks for having loved me. i love you, too

just now as i was walking home, i was thinking of you
i'm just...... i'm just glad that you said that you'll never forget me. "not that easy, yea? xD"
the correct spelling is below

my heart just tore up reading the old messages you sent me when we were still together. i'd do anything to relive those memories x(
i won't ever forget you, too. EVER.

ti penso sempre

Samuel

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