Ninth Post

hmm......

regrets. regrets. no......
i regret. give me a chance, please......
blah...... i regret. regret.
后悔……

Today has been quite serene, which is good...
hmm... dunnoe. 杀人.

today, i was bargaining with this adult... 19yo, know absolutely zilch about him
he has a plethora of child pr0n......
what am i? jealous? envious?

SAD.

why am i sad? I DON'T KNOW. GOD, DAMN MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAHAHAHA ______ ME
TODAY, I'M SAD O_____________O
am i sad? yes. i am sad.
sad for those BEGUILED YOUTHS. WHAT? GOD, DAMN BEGUILED YOUTHS.
which includes me =o just that i wasnt dumb enough to show anyone my body.
i dont remember my "height and weight" for you fucktards to imagine how i look so you would continue talking to me or not.
you... plethora of videos. why? WHY?

WHY?

and i should have trusted myself more. it's "ninth", not "nineth"......

today, i went to the park. to meet up with samuel loh...
guess we slacked around much.
the kids... hmm......
no...... i dont fantasize............................................
no.............................................
and i saw the one i like... found out hes p6 and his name is junhao...
hes from yckps... same as my sis......
............................................................ 杀我
我恨我自己

IS HE A VICTIM OF HUIKANG THE PAEDOPHILE? IS HE? can i take him? can i save him? CAN I? IS HE A VICTIM OF PERVERSE SODOMY?

many people dislike me. or are they just shy?
i dont like myself. i hate myself.
i cant get my videos.

sad la. sad la. sad la. sad la. sad la.
that video guy said i have to mast with him to get 100 videos.
_|_ him. to hell.
i have dignitie. at least i have dignitie.
i respect myself.
I WILL NOT TRADE ANYTHING. i cannot spread this shit.

i shared my snapple with a small boy. he shared it with his friends.
some know my name.
i hope they remember me.

i've been feeling a weird sensation in my body... i could have been tired... or maybe it's the 2nd-hand smoke...... i dont know. i hope nothing too serious emerges...
please.

i dont know. how did you get all the videos?
WHY? WHY THESE INJUSTICES?

God bless you. i dont know what to do. just how? good or bad, just how?
bad, how? i wont betray my body. these adults, YOU MUST BE CONDEMNED.

i hate myself. i'm no better.
no better than anyone.
no better than you reading.

Samuel

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