Thirty-fifth Post: Melancholy

hi ~.~

today, kena rejected. not that i reallie mind......
maybe it triggered thangs. such as weikang.
then kennie.

i had been emo-ing since mos burger to. O.O macdonalds.
i finallie teared when i thought of one thing. my schoolmate......

i kept on calling myself "son of a..., bastard"

yea, i cried. at macdonalds.
"You're abnormal. So, why are you still living.................."
cry. cry. cry. ~.~
then someone said "he's normal liao"
i retracted my hand. not taking the fries -_-'l|
yea. cry more. fuck myself

i tied my handkerchief around my neck. choking myself. kinda.
if i tilt my head to look up, there's high pressure.
~_~ fuck myself
so........................ finallie removed the handkerchief after 20mins or something......

went home with sendi didi. xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
thanks for the day, =D

and. the boy is still at the coffeeshop
i began "i nvr want to see him again"
i was voided of feelings as i walk home.
what is this?
i don't know
no matter, anyway

tomorrow isoouting, i want more people swim~

Samuel

Labels: 08mlchlydechols, cry, heartache