Three-hundred-eleventh Post

ello~

;D

@@ seksehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

doing homework now. planning to sleep at 3++ or 4++ since i've slept for HOURS compounded yesterday.

full of imagination

tired boi

:'\

Samuel

Labels: 10term2, messedup, musicvideo, stayingupearly

Two-hundred-forty-second Post

i'm very sad because
spiderman's fingers will drop off in time
and he can never ever climb again
his passion is dashed,
my eyes...... are scarred
my mind is corrupted
dammnit... _|_ myself

);
어디에 있어요?
Samuel

Labels: 09term4, messedup

Hundred-seventy-first Post: H³

yoyoyo xD

back from victoria theatre @_@

today was the cultural thing

H³ o_______O
okay lah. dont reallie know how to appreciate it
was like sleeping for a while @_@

today (tuesday) was a crap day lah
failed term 2 <_<
haissssssssss

failedddddddddd AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FAILEDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
failed so many things
want die <_<

wanted to walk to dhoby ghaut but i guess my navigating skills arent too good yet @_@

today met pim, shake and bel :B
xDDD got pics :B go isoblog :B


cute hor? :B
hmm... tomorrow combined sports meet~

hais...... ytd crie @_@
today later gonna crie @_@
haha, bleahs. crie crie crie~
i 听话 orh? now go sleep le x) hughug...
Samuel

Labels: 09term2, cry, messedup, victoriatheatre

Hundred-forty-eighth Post

at least i fed my employees on time something i did right

Your Guardian Angel sounds inappropriate

today (thursday), german was great =D
today, i experienced a dream which should be... of the second classification
a wake-initiated lucid dream (WILD) occurs when the dreamer goes from a normal waking state directly into a dream state with no apparent lapse in consciousness

i don't know what's wrong.
maybe vandalising? tell me...
dont seep away D;
slept kinda earlie yesterday. 11.30 liddat

i guess i shall look at the letter x(
reversion to the life of melancholy and suicide?
chemical reactions. God blessing people
i can do it, says ms cheong.
time to do geographie maybe.

Samuel

Labels: 09term2, german, messedup

Hundred-forty-seventh Post

screw up.

ich denke, dass es geschmerzt hat. ficke mich ~_~

lemme go sleep ~_~

Samuel

Labels: 09term2, messedup

Hundred-fortieth Post

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

my maths got 22/40 @_@
first time so low
but i'm not depressed, i think

tired piece of _______ xD
late work~
dunnoe dunnoe dunnoe
dunnoe so many things
doooooooooooooooooooooomed

LAZINESSSS

playing like shit at audi
and debate's coming up
OH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO :'(

Samuel

Labels: 09term2, messedup

Hundred-thirty-first Post

4444 messages in my inbox
ominous
it's probably not potent
these words were said against me:

terrible.
make use of someone.
betray trust.

disturbed.

disturbing
absurd
bizzare

not friends anymore?

it scares
it hurts
it drives

coupled with relationship problems

i cant smile

i am feeling hurt
its tangible
i'm almost tearing
though they say seek professional assistance if accidentally ingested.
it will be a wretched day. in 7 hours time.

---

i cannot respond at all.
steven )'x i reallie loved you

---

suicidal. i should go to hell.

it's either nonchalance or hurt

---

THINK OF THE 5-ROOM FLAT WITH FOUR PEOPLE
THINK OF THE EMPTY BED
THINK OF THE PIECES OF PAPER WITH "Samuel Tan" ON IT
look at the unworn shoes
look at the computer.
look at the pictures of the past with me in it.

think of the coffin
in it lies a criminal, handcuffed
hated by people.

---

I don't know. Having relationship problems with someone i like. I don't know. I don't know. I so wish the ponstan had killed me one year ago. I don't wish to be living. I want to cry and feel good. I'm sorry. Please don't reply. I need solitude

Samuel

I WANT TO KILLLLLLLL I WANT TO DIE
I WANT TO HURT
BECAUSE I WAS HURT and KILLED

---

THERE'S STRONG INTERNAL CONFLICT WITHIN ME
it just pains me greatly
i wonder why i take death so lightly


this looks reallie scarie.
may contain HCl and NaOH to regulate pH

i am onlie wondering if i should drink it
and when i should drink it

the consequences? the actions of my beloved, poor mother?

i cannot garner your pity or whatever......

Labels: 09term2, m, messedup

SpikeDog123

my life is so screwed up xD
screwing up further, with the sole intention to incite hatred
to invoke rejection
to waste my wastrel life away

always giving wrong impressions and i enjoy that
always being cryptic
being arrogant, too clever for my own gooood
so pessimistic, so masochistic
so rejected, so rejecting
a shame
a dishonour

when you say i love you, i may feel it
when you say i hate you, i feel it

a big lie wouldn't make me imagine someone's my bolster

to kill
...............................................................................

to kill
to disappoint

i just wish i can die
so, hate me
hate gays. gays should die
paedophiles should die
beguiled youths should die
misfits should die

to cry.
crying makes me feel good
i don't know why i'm so masochistic
must be the effect of years of rejection and hurt
pain and longing

i'm a fake
a cheat
a thief
a murderer
as i have said, i feel good in two ways: love or hurt. i'm reducing to the hedonistic way of life. please. just love me. or hate me.
Samuel

Labels: 09term2, iwnwil, messedup, styh

Hundred-twenty-first Post: 出状况了

dunnoe yaoming kor wad happen

maths probability test was completely
COMPLETELY screwed up
i asked someone to be my bf but......
haha.

lost to some random person on clubxiangqi
sian.
...................................................

wonder if i'm wrecking the money of the familie

and things... are still as lazy

Samuel

Labels: 09term2, messedup

Forty-first Post: Screwed Up

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

xan jie is leaving )';

ytd i emo till heart pain till siao

ytd i stranded in the city. heng got coin phone can call my dad
he came holiday inn at 4am to pick me @_@

ahhhhhhhhhh bur cant go isoouting )';

today so screwed up )';

how how how? HOW? D;

so sad. so messed. so tired. )';

jiejie going le. D: byebye jiejie )';!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Samuel

Labels: 08mlchlydechols, adventure, byebye, heartache, messedup