I dreamt that I met you. Before meeting you, we chatted on the phone through message services.
The way you chatted was kinda like yours in real life.
When I met you, you didn't really resemble how you looked in real life.
I was kinda disappointed and then I thought to myself that if I really loved you, even if you don't look as handsome as you do in real life, I should still treat you the same way as I would. As I had.
I always think that way... I wonder what the case would have been if you didn't look the way you do.
I wonder that sometimes......
Anyway, after we met up, I can't remember what we did together...... nothing seksual, though
perhaps we went out together? visit plaza singapura......
I woke up at eight am. didn't get to bathe again nor brush my teeth before sleeping
been playing Don't Starve Together with rephael
every time i finish playing with rephael, i'd lie on my bed for a while to relax
then feel sleepy
and then fall asleep...
when i woke up, i went to bathe. i rarelie bathe in the morning...
i brushed my teeth, flossed them and then gargled with some mouthwash
i didn't get to scrub myself clean, though
i prepared to go to school.
i travelled to school.
i arrived at the Synthesis lab at 10.05 am it's a freaking miracle I'm this "early"
then i sat at my fumehood. then the lab technician asked me why i was there ._. then i suddenlie recalled
that i had to go to the Applied Chemistry lab for this week's experiment (some palladium coupling reaction forming carbon-carbon bonds called SatoshigoraSonogashira coupling) LOL couldn't remember the name
the TA had a slightly high-pitched voice, called See Jie Yang
erm.
at first he asked me impatientlie what i was doing
i thought he was a meanie :(
but he softened up after a while and helped me a lot
he seemed prettie nice,
oh, beside me was a Year 4 student who was doing his FYP. he helped me too :D
ya. this post was meant to be about you, actually
basicallie after waking up together, i couldn't stop thinking about you
as i travelled from home to the station, i kept on thinking about you
that you were with me
on the road
on the train
basicallie on my mind constantlie
and so, regarding this TA, he reminded me of the didi-korkor complex that we both had
on my way back home, you were on my mind too
i listened to 하루하루 on the train
that you kept on playing that song on msn when i was discharged from hospital
거짓말 too
where you typed "iya mollasseo ijeya arrasseo~" in audition while playing that song
Blue
Tonight
Monster
Love Dust
that ate up 0.1 GB of my data plan. i'm left with 0.16 GB until 7th Feb =x
I've said this before. I wish I could hallucinate. it's different from the mere imagining that you're with me
it's the surreal perception that you're with me
i don't mind being called crazie. i just want to feel you.
in the lift home, i sang along to Love Dust
and i thought my voice was great =x maybe i'll make a little cover of that song =x
I hope I don't creep you out with this droning on about you. I know you told Ped stuff about me... which I agree with. It's true, I'm "bad". I was abused too when I was young, so I was rather "sick", but I hope you won't think of me that way now... I realised my mistakes le
anyway, I hope you're doing well ^^ missing you dearlie
deardear :(
i wonder too if stephanie still hates me :\ and doesn't wanna have anything to do with me...
Samuel
i'm searching on google for part-time jobs i could do in the remaining 8-week vacation period. i've been looking for ice-cream parlour jobs like marble slab creamery, but GIVEN THE VERIE FORTUNATE SUPPLIE OF STAFF AT MARBLE SLAB CREAMERIE, I KENOT LAND A JOB THERE. DARRRRRRRRNNNNNNNNNNIT.
anyway, i'm rotting reallie badlie at home. i should look for a job =.= but i'm also looking for one that pays okay. i'll probablie check out OTHER ice-cream parlours :3 although i reallie want to try working at one with prestige and has real, good ice-cream, not crap ice-cream. this is so that there will actuallie be sincere customers ^.^ and that i won't feel bad selling crap. LOL.
i'll probablie go around town and visit those parlours and observe the environment and working conditions. then i'll enquire. i reallie don't wanna work somewhere i don't feel comfortable at.
and if they all insist i send in a freaking résumé.
......
i might send in the résumé LOL :x
but siriuslie, i'm so customer-orientated in my stint at new york new york. Y U NO WAN ME ;___; because i look like crap? ;__;
sobbles...... that means sob sob LOL
apart from working at an ice-cream parlour, i'm also interested in trying out working in retail. HUAHUAHUA
i so shie :$ sekali i get fired after two days...... sigh
anyway, yesterday 30 May 2014
i had a dream... i dreamt of steven. i dreamt that we went on holiday together ;D
although it didn't look like steven, i knew it was him from the way he spoke and the way he was. his soul, reallie.
the gentleness...... the steven qualities...... of being nice and obedient towards me......
i can't remember what happened in the dream, but i enjoyed it x) as always
i hope you haven't forgetten me x)
i love you. i hope you'd come back one day......
Hey, man. It's been a looooooooooooongggg time since I last blogged......
You know the reason why I don't blog is because I'm "poisoned", right? ~.~
Anyway, I've been "clean" for ten days now. I feel the "best" now compared to the past couple of weeks.
Of course, I have not really been clean. I...... didn't rely on total stimulants abstinence.
~____~ of course the best is if I totally THROW AWAY THOSE STIMULANTS. THAT WOULD BE GREAT.
fuck withdrawal.
anyway, I had a nightmare yesterday... at least, it was becoming a nightmare.
I dreamt that I was dragged by the feet by a fucking gay pervert. I was being dragged into a room with his partner inside.
I knew I was going to be raped. To be molested and destroyed.
That feeling of being helpless...... and unable. it just gets to me. it pisses me off.
Thankfully, I woke up. FUCK YOU, PERVERTS _|_
ESPECIALLY, RAPISTS. I CURSE YOU TO HELL.
anyway, my second year in university has ended :D I'm SOOOOOOOOOO GLADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :DDDDDDDDDDD
my 12-week break shall begin IN TWO DAYS. MUAHAHA.
SHALL I GO TO WORK? :B I should, to earn some money :x
after all, I bought some toys... or our mother bought some toys for us =x
LINE recently opened up a pop-up store (read: heaven) in Singapore at Wisma Atria :x I went there with Grace and our mother on Labour Day... it was a Friday :D
here are some pictures we took ^_^
IT's MOON :D!!!! with a dangling Sally =x
twist~~~ i got 33 likes on facebook for this oh yea *heart*
LOL
Gold Brown and Silver Cony...... made with real Au and Ag. LOL
tell me that you want this...... if you don't, you're not human.
SO CUTE RIGHT?!!!!!!! LOOK AT ALL THE DOLLS ON THE LOWEST SHELF :DD THEY EVEN HAVE SALLY CUPS ON THE RIGHT!!!!!!!
giant head dolls :B they say they're 45-cm wide...... guess how much they cost?
$50? NOPE. They cost as low as $2.95, BECAUSE SOME LUCKY FOOL WON THE LINE EVENT OF SUGGESTING THE LOWEST UNIQUE PRICE FOR THE DOLLS D:
T.T
neeway, here's a reallie neat postcard summing up the aweshumity of LINE. They >> WhatsApp, WeChat, Whatever.
Look whom we got home~~ ^.^ the small Moon head doll and some imitation Sallies..... LOL :x
kidding about the imitation sallies. they're separately bought when I went to Fourskin some days ago. LOL I TYPED THE ACTUAL WORD @@
Yea! So therefore I must find a job to pay back my mother for the toys......................... :x
Wild Wild Wet? Retail? Tuition?
I'll head down to Wild Wild Wet next Monday because the first 300 to flash their NTUC card can get free entrie =x you know me, I'm a sucker for free stuff and WILD WILD WET then i'll ask about working there again while i'm there =x
I'll also consider working for a month at Dexus to help Ms Wong out =x she asked me last year if I could work part-time there, but I alreadie had my wild wild wet job :s and I didn't reallie wanna work at a student care for one month
Alright. I hope I can remain clean :'(
toodles~
Samuel once again, I'm impressed with what a pro I am ^_^ 0646
Is it that time of the month again? That time when I feel withdrawal...
in case some of you don't know, I suffer from withdrawal from...... bad stuff :(
neeway, on request of somebardy, I AM HERE TO BLOGGEH ONCE MORE!
so, let's begin with describing an erotic dream I had just this morning......
I don't know why :( but I was ....... LOL should I reallie be describing it to you? :\
okay. i kinda enjoyed it... we were in some cubicle in a reallie open bathing room. like the room was large, but the cubicles had large gaps under the door.
it's something like this:
except that there were doors.
the spatial layout of the cubicles and bathing room was also something like this...:
yea. there were four of us...... @@.............
another guy joined us andd i started going wonkie because i recognised him as my jc classmate whom i had a liking too... omgg
and i reallie went insane with my white eyes and demonic demeanour. it left everyone sad...... and the ... stopped
i also dreamt i was sent to prison. must be watching too much Suits ._.
the warden didn't treat me nicelie at all. what an asswhole. but i managed to escape and made some friends who were working there.
on a side note, i had my wisdom tooth extracted last saturday!
AND IT WAS NOTHING LESS THAN HORRIBLE ;___;
the oral surgeon didn't anaesthetise my gums properly/enough...... he had to re-inject local anaesthesia TWICE. DAFUG.
i could feel his INTENTIONAL SAWING into my gum... omg. imagine if someone took a blade and just viciouslie cut into your gums :( IT WAS HORRIBLE. my palms were both sweaty throughout and my body was trembling in pain and fear...... pain, ouch :(
i also felt the sensation of my wisdom tooth being CLIPPED like a fingernail... :( there was a clipping sound and my tooth just broke off :(
i was a horrible experience ;____; my gums bled a lot on the first day...... but it has since gotten better ;D
but i think i damaged the stitched area earlier this morning when my toothbrush accidentally hit it while i was trying to brush the upper left teeth... and now the wound is open :(
i woke up this morning with some blood in mah mouth o_O but i hope it will not be a problem, that wound......
i hope it will heal quicklie ^_^
here's the wisdom tooth after the surgery that day!
look at them seksaye dental legs LOL
alright. ciao for now :)
Samuel and phark yew, Compose function, for screwing up my post's html
had a rather eventful day yesterday. lab. OMG LABORATORY. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
-sad life-
sigh......
neeway, i had lab class from 12 to 5 D: and my practical was reallie like shit. didn't read some instructions TnT
next time, i will highlight important procedures =.= i can't make mistakes again. not errors, but mistakes. SCROOOOO
after lab at around 6, i had dinner with mah Teaching Assistant aka TA :D it was my first time ordering food from the other side of the canteen...... i ordered pork ribs noodles :D it was rather delicious!!! so we talked about my lab and other stuff too (like some lecturer :x) and school stuff and also he taught me some chemistry stuff (like HOMO and LUMO in relation to organic chemistry (?) LOL) so we were at the canteen until 8 lidat o_o
afterwards, he brought me to the FYP (Final Year Project) lab where he does his fyp... his honours, basicallie. there were people in the lab at 9 pm lah D: LIFELESS!!!! LOL
sad life of a crymisery major... not him, but me :(
afterwards, we both boarded some shuttle bus to west coast park plaza or something o_o LOL! then i took the bus back to school and chatted with the uncle driver
I WASH SHO TIRED LAHHHHHHHH it was 10 pm alreadie. so i fell asleep...... and woke up at around 1 am o_o i have bathed, btw =x
i recalled the dream i was having. i dreamt my ex and i became emotionallie close again. we were side by side and then we both rested our heads on each other... even holding hands... in public. not like orchard road in public, but along a street... i onlie recalled this in the shower.
the feeling of wanting each other, liking each other's presence, wanting to be with each other... caring for each other. there weren't cheerful smiles, but rather just a sad yearning on our faces to be close to each other. he forgave me! but alas, it was only just a dream. apparentlie, i didn't dream about max LOL who said he'd visit me in my dream o_O
alright. time to start on some tutorials bah. long day today.
and lastly, God bless the lady who lost both her sons on Monday )';
i dreamt i met your brother and i wanted to check out his iphone images to see if there were any pictures of you. there were, of course, but your hair was yellow o_O
you, of course, were against my browsing x) but you did not actively stop me. and by brother, i meant daryl x)
i can't remember if we went anywhere together, but you went to my room to change......
and...... we......
well, we did things that i was so willing to do. we must have enjoyed it, though x)
i can't remember ): but in the end, daryl scolded and hit me and you had to go somewhere...... we never met again, although i had a strong feeling we could. the thought of having you write me another letter was so real, and the thought of writing you one, too.
alas, i woke up at 9 am......
i reallie wish we could see each other again ~.~
Samuel you changed my freaking life.
i reallie enjoyed the dream. i love you, steven! ;D
first, it was my H1 Chinese A level Oral exams @@ hmm... compared to last year, i'd say this year was better :\ i'm still hoping for an A though! ):
second, it was a poetry slam for my german class i got 2nd ^_^ even though i'm the reserved and quiet one people said i was expressive and brave :DDD! i got a polo t-shirt as a prize :D
"Ich habe dieses Gedicht geschrieben, denn es dient als eine Erinnerung an jemanden......" -awws- xD
i accompanied some of my german classmates to mos burger at junction 8 and i was like... 不倒翁 a roly-poly!
xD
then i went to serangoon and took bus service 109 with warren... but WARREN DID NOT WAKE ME UP so i ended at changi D: ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
so i took a 109 back z_z at least i got to see more parts of singapore ^^
i woke up at 7 am today actuallie, but i continued to sleep until 3 pm -_- it was because of my dream ): i woke up and looked at the clock and decided to go back to sleep because: 1. i haven't slept for 8 hours 2. i wanted to return to dreamland ):
the dream was on harrie potter... i dreamt i went to watch it .......................... what a weird dream. popcorn in ice milo -____- LOL
i've been waking up at 3 pm lor ): stupid
on thursday, i went for my NS Checkup _|_ spent like 5 hours there. Central Manpower Base. _______
x__x
that x-ray doctor is a perv. fucking hell blatantly looked at my chest.
the eye station people: 1 is nice, the other is a _________________________________ fill in the blanks. dutiful but could be more courteous
and at the hearing station, i was given a survey form to fill up... and i forgot to return the pen. oops
OH. at the measurements station for outfits, that uncle. _____
x__x
and when i had to have my blood drawn, that doctor was like. using rhetorics? so i replied "WHAT THING?" coz i didnt get him o_O
it hurts so much to think that what i only have of you left are thoughts of you, a scan of your letter and our chatlogs i can't move on. i don't want to move on x(
i begged someone to get your pristine e-mail address off the blacklist of her blogshop because you didn't eventually buy some lenses
I DONT KNOW. I WAS SO BROKEN. MY LIFE NEVER SEEMED TO HAVE HOPE my throat's choking in pain x( i'll do anything. i'll be your slave or dog. Please reappear...... 14 days ago. I know you are still around but i really wish you would talk to me i wouldnt mean to be rude or stupid, incorrigible or a waste of your time i wouldnt mean to hurt you or do anything bad it must have been a fucking shame for you
i dreamt about you. it's the best dream ever. i dreamt i was an l4d special infected with a group of fellow special infected at a hotel somewhere in the world. we moved around the corridors covertly...... we tried to eat people i went to a splendid room with three bejeweled bathtubs and we wanted to bathe but there's no water. we moved around some more and suddenly one of us went down to eat people. it alerted the crowd and they were after us. we tried to run and i tried to kill some by pouncing on them but it was of no use
i was at some grand hotel where there was a buffet...... it was all-you-can-eat and must have been some food hotel because the food items were of many different cuisines. i cannot remember exactly what happened but i had a feeling you were around of all places in the world you travel, you were right here in the same building i saw huncheng that molester. you must have known him...... i looked around for you and finally i saw you. it had to be you. it was such a stark resemblence -- your looks, your height, your niceness...... you were with huncheng but you stuck with me. thank God you went onto me and started to do what the green-haired guy did @@ it felt so good...... even in the dream, the feeling felt so real @@ i saw everything............ we really loved each other
i saw your abs and i remembered steph saying she can't stop looking at your abs so i asked while touching them "how did you get your abs?" xD "it's normal de......" "then mine also normal de" xP
you followed me...... we were at the area near hougang mrt station. i suggested you came home with me because it was near serangoon where you must have stayed it was near chompchomp which was a walkable distance away, from serangoon that is you agreed...... we're finally gonna live together (;
we were walking around some hdb flats...... those white colour near hougang mall de. then got someone suddenlie talk to you O: he spoke japanese and u talked to him in japanese. i was so amazed by you xD
we were at bishan/serangoon mrt station...... we saw pim and sarah and co. on the train grace and co. waved to them but did not exit the gate they were trapped between the train and the glass door...... i tried to pry the gates open. i succeeded but it was enforced with electromagnets......
they were rescued. but you suddenly disappeared. i went to look for you around stations...... but to no avail my perception turned 3rd-person and my vision became warp
i have lost you x(
i woke up and i wanted to sleep again to look for you but chances are i will never see you again
It hurts so much You've become a part of me Please, help me alleviate this pain. Please! do whatever. i promise you i will not kill myself. Please! Do whatever. I promise you i will not hurt myself. I promise you. I Promise you. I promise you I will not hurt myself. Do anything but ignore me, please! Could you give me a chance? I never hated you. I'm sorry. I will be a good boy like I should be I can't stand the surge of the thought that it's all impossible Let me cry in front of you, in your arms. I wanna do that
I love you, I love you. I pray you are doing well in life. You'll always be in my thoughts. constantly. hughug x(
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What is/was in my mind......
i'm aloof when the situation calls for attention live for the dreams. unmaterialised thoughts.
the deadliness of words. should i kill people with words...... or be a supposedly nice person and just bear with it
do i reallie have asperger? )';
punishment
i'm not getting things right
i know i've been dragging time on my part but your total insensitivity and lack of empathy just make me want to give up
what's more important, orchard central or my well-being?
why should i smile... it's not for anyone
lol, no one understands.
i know. should i just go out with someone i dont know very well and expose all my hidden depression. someone who is younger than me expecting that he would understand when he wont because he has problems of his own? should i call for help hoping she would understand and protect me holistically so that i would feel safe from the start to the end hoping she would not pressure me
you know what love is it's an unconditional bond. it is forgiving. it is being honest and truthful
Two-hundred-ninety-eighth Post: Please strike it away
i dreamt you were at my school. i reallie looked like you. the charm, the niceness...... t the obedience melts my heart
dont know why you were there...... perhaps i was jc2 and you were jc1? w and it was post-orientation partie...... maybe you were there for fun being as elusive as you are, i was surprised you would meet me...... a i was reallie happie x) and you told me you had to go but we would see each s other soon. x) n
some teacher invented a kind of gun... which shoots a little red cubic pellet e which can penetrate the temple and kill someone v
suddenlie, you told me you had to go... e i went to the bus stop and you were there............ r that teacher was there to. and she was wondering if she would pull the trigger y at you o which she did u which i saw to my utmost horror r i shouted "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" u.u as i jumped towards you, trying to block the pellet but it was too late l however, it hit your temple and bounced backwards...... o
you were alright...... o but then your nose started to bleed. k and your head started to fuzz as you incurred internal damage s you grew weak and fell as i held you i
i beseeched you to let me take you home and you agreed :'\ your bus came and we boarded the bus. we went to the back and we sat together in a row t you leaned against me...... as you rested...not the row at the back i was glad. it's you and me now...... w
the bus ride was too slow and i wanted to bring you to the hospital a so i transformed into a flying titan and flew in the sky with you with me s the bus was in my hand which appeared like a toilet roll y with a syrian hamster trying to get out o i flew around aimlesslie and put the hamster down on the ground.
we flew around for a while and decided to give up as i landed beside a flight of u steps of perhaps a hdb flat...... r
in our minds was hope that daryl would come drive us. but in my vision, he was still at home...... perhaps still lazing around i said as you sat back, tired and breathless p "daryl is so ssssssssssssss......"tupid "yea," you said as you smiled
you just knew what was on my mind a
i love you, and you loved me too s 아직도 넌 내게 관심이 있어? 널 기억하고 생각하고 사랑해. Samuel t
i dreamt i was in germany/malaysia. it was some road trip, my father drove us there. the road was like that of alameen's...... i was playing audition. euroaudition? playing beat rush. their beat rush boxes are much smaller...... and reallie weird. hmm...... the bead goes round as usuallie. but it stays at parts with some icon to indicate what you must do. for example, when it comes to an icon which was purple and showed "press", i had to spam ctrl...... and according to how much i spammed, i would have a little figurine moving round the beat rush trail...... LOL and then there was one icon which said "RAGE QUIT" and i (accidentallie) pressed that when the bead reached there. and i was awarded japanese loudspeaker o_O i have no idea. weird cash stuff LOL
i guess i logged in again and went into a room, intent on pawning people...... coincidentallie, they also had the song LOVELIE O_O 사랑스러워 i pawned them as expected... :B using a nooooooob acc :B COINCIDENTALLIE, someone was in a cafe PLAYING IN THE SAME ROOM IN AUDITION and mr TIEU WAS THERE O_O he's my sec4 form teacher i guess it was his birthday, so his students were treating him...... walked down the road a bit and i saw jj and jd O_O they are my german jiejies but it couldnt have been them coz in the dream, they were angmohs......
some person walked up to them. apparantlie, i know him o_O or her so i managed to say viel Spaß to them :B and they responded ^^ they said "you too" i think :B in german ^^
then i apparantlie had a folded heart o_O so i gave put it in front of mr tieu and walked out :X but in the end just stopped and talked to him and i guess i woke up :B
today isoouting! with nai and ped..........................................................................................................................................
LOL
anyway, went to jcube long time no see nai, i verie anticipate seeing her ;D then we sat down and waiting for jas and gina O_O so...... they came and we got 4 coms :B
it was fun :B ;D cant explain because of technical difficulties...... LOL and alex.............................. idiot ;eeks
afterwards, we just sat on the sofa to wait for ped for............... 1 hour? joking LOL then he finallie came! we were wearing the same pants almost...... same as the indian man i sat beside with on the train
as soon as ped came, we decided to go home :X patpatpatpatpatpat
gina and nai took the train going in the other direction :X then jas, ped and i took the train back to hougang.............. ped ;shy LOL jas alighted at kovan :B then ped and i continued on to hougang......
we eventuallie decided to walk home :B then i talk to him about stars...... and other things :B we went to shop n save which is behind my place walked around, trying to find cotton balls...... then decided to buy chocolate but offer :@ expired just today :@ so we wanted to buy sweets... then changed our mind in the end, i suggested we eat CREAM PUFFS LOL we got them they had 40¢ discount O.O and we ate them :B a bit like icecream...... but when u lick the walls of ur mouth, got creamie and slipperie feeling :B then i ate like 10+...... ped ate a few :B
we went back to my house < DDD and switched on two computers my other computer has been reformatted O.O wtf i just realised there's a dead ant inside my screen. WTF HOW TO GET IT OUT
anyway, we played with msn :B coz two computer on mah. then ped played some audi............................ and i suddenlie became tired @@ so i went to lie down and he pestered me :B
so i dragged him onto my parents' bed opened the gate for him and directed him to the busstop....... kinda LOL then i totallie just lost consciousness. LOL
had sommore dreams................ dreamt that it was raining o_O then jeraldine and i were together trying to get to somewhere it was some day...... so we decided to walk in the rain she tried to take pictures of me :@ but i too agile :@ we went somewhere......... haha, no idea larhs typed some german :B and just woke up
at 2.30am friday o_O last day of holidays le ): LOL. my hair looks good O.O I LOOK GOOD HAHAHA
i was walking with my didi at night to somewhere...... it was dark, we were walking through some hougang-like blocks... i saw a woman in some sleepwear holding a gun my didi decided to investigate and went to probe her although i told him not to it was dangerous. he could be shot ;___; and to my horror, he was shot dead it was a mad woman, and she was after me next i fearfully walked away with my life as she whisked bullets past me i retardedly crawled on the tarmac behind the parked cars as she chased after me...... i managed to get on my feet and run away i reached a coffeeshop... and i cried out with so much sadness that there's a murderer on the loose, CALLLLLLL THE POLICEEEEEEE like a the people reacted and jumped off their seats dying woman i was reallie so sad my didi was dead
i was at home in my room... still mournful then someone was knocking on the wooden door of my room i was so sad, i didn't want to care and just asked who that was and there was a familiar voice i opened to door, AND IT WAS MY DIDI! ALIVE! i was overjoyed ); i hugged him...... he was happie to see me too i closed the door and locked it again and Eros took over............ it felt reallie good... there was definitelie love
i woke up from this dream and went to school...... my life is getting screwed ); Samuel
i was on the phone with my exbf at around 2am O: he started me thinking about the past...... and i looked back and realised if we were still together, it would have been a reallie long 5 months ++++, an amazing feat *-* that got my heart pounding and it hurttttt t tt t ): it hurt so badlie, like when i was at huncheng kor's house but i could take it O: my heart wasnt that weak it felt so good... i started comforting myself...... imagining :\ i asked if he would never leave me as i teared and to promise me that, he had to do something so he sealed the promise with a kiss x) and i felt better x) so i climbed onto my bed and laid beside himi was on my mattress i shared my pillow with him my heart didn't hurt anymore and i drifted off to dreamland...............................................
THE FIRST DREAM WAS something like GTA again LOL DAMN COOL LAH it had a little bit of The Tuxedo, the 9pm show on channel 8 LOL the fatass woman some agent created a car for me to drive O_O yay, driving again ;D i think we're sposed to assasinate some woman O: it was prettie hard manoeuvrering the car in the narrow places x.x she was in some 5star hotel, and the agent was coaxing her to come out or something =o okay, i admit i cant reallie rmb LOL ):
the next part of this car dream was the woman along with her henchman stumbled upon my parents who were prollie trying to help me O: WHAT THE F prada was on the woman's side O: i was feeling reallie scared i saw them outside through some large hole on the wall and they were conversing with another group of people they suddenlie came into the area i was in and stabbed my mom in the hand ): and of course hurt my father too i was trying so hard to hide under the staircase but i could still be seen lah <_> LOL i hid for a while but suddenlie one of the henchmen saw me and they were alerted to my presense :@ i quicklie took out the portable car and transformed it into a life-sized one i drove the car into them with some stupid difficultie <_> hard sia, hard to rmb also <.< they ran away anyway, and i was shocked prada was on their side she called me to trie to reconcile but there was nothing to talk about <.< i rescued my parents~ END OF DREAM 1 ~_______~ lousie memorie
the second dream...... was something like an isoouting ;D in fact, ISOHOLIDAY :DDDDDDDD we went to somewhere like genting i guess O: and while i was dreaming, it reallie felt like 3 days have passed i could remember most vividlie that we were on our way to some cinema and there were many people like nebo salesmen who were giving out free stuff ;D the floor was full of them -- toys, SPA bags LOL SPA bags are those pschool i wanted a monkey toy, so one of them gave it to me ;D bags, bulkie de and we could take the bags if we wanted LOL i slowlie made my way up...... then the movie alreadie playing le it was a 3D movie LOL ;D i quicklie found a sear with 3D glasses at the end of the each row. DAMN COOL LAH THE SCREEN SHOT LAVA TOWARDS ME AND I SCREAMED LOL then my slowpoke frens came in and i passed them some glasses i sat behind some stupid ladie -_- and the screen shot out more lava LOL and i SCREAMMMMMMMMMMED XDDDDDDDD then the ladie got irritated and scolded me -_- i argued and she talk talk talk rubbish _|_ then my fren scolded her and so did another woman beside her. LOL, then we made some deal -- if what i said was true, she would dunnoe do wad <.< the contract was some kind of torn paper, lame si ren haha ;D i watched a bit of shark boi and lava girl ytd on channel 5 (which was in 3D), and i went with my tuition centre to genting 2 years ago with the p6-es then i was at somewhere like my bathroom bellerina -.- and pim i was shooting those toy guns which shoot out those metal/glass marbles LOL was trying to shoot bellerina coz shes such an _________ and i managed to hit her ;D but pim was angrie <.< so she hit me i rmb i was clinging onto my water pipe which was falling <.< i guess it was something like the beach and bellerina in this dream was totallie the sucker
THE THIRD DREAM................................. i was playing some computer game O: it was quite similar to another dream abit space-station-like, abd it was a first-person shooting game ;D i opened some door and aliens started popping out ): and i shot them @@ i made my way to some grand area...... it's like a canyon, and nearer to the left of where i stood was a mounted gun ;D abit like half-life 2!!!!! < DDD aliens started to pour in so i operated the mounted gun ;D and shot them@@@@@@@@ then i went into some shaft which more of sucked me to the other end of the shaft O: i found out that the whole place was set to self-destruct mode ): and there was a hidden spaceship nearby O: i found that out when i found this npc on top of the shelter O: she was ninja-like and i had to shoot her to make her calm down <.< she spoked like a banshee in warcraft III @@ LOL abit like power stone also~ the indian one
.............. then i was at somewhere and my bro said we could both play the game on the same computer O: interesting~ i used wasdjkl while he used arrowkeys and the three buttons beside numlock and it WORKED ;D we were playing... it was prettie hard controlling without a mouse <.< LOL so i got shot till 30% and we were all in some room with health and armour the heatlh bottles looked like those nike ones O: which u can shoot out water if u press hard enough ;D then we suddenlie became INSIDE the game O: so we made it to the same grand area... and the aliens started pouring in again @@ so i operated the mounted gun while my bro fought off the right side with his pistol haha ;D he like cannot take it lah so we ran to some area...... and we met new npc-es! they looked like life-sized people from teen titans and harper's island damn cool! i led them to the sucking shaft and we all slided to the other side~ the same thing happened -- we're told the place was gonna selfdestruct O: so we quicklie ran back @@ coz aliens are pouring in again and chasing us we faster went back to the shaft D: and got sucked back up first then i blocked the shaft with my legs so that aliens will get knocked back down some friends managed to get sucked back safelie ;D some couldn't reach the bars so i stuck my hand down to grab them @@ i made my way to the spaceship room with someone O: there were 3mins 44sec left before the spaceship detonates i rmb i said i rmb got spaceship here and if we fail, we can play this again @@ then i showed him where the assasin was... and she somehow incapacitated my friend and i had to grab her face and pull her off LOL :s the game went to the menu page and i tried to replay the game but i couldnt........................ i also rmb i had a dream where grace and i were playing playstation with some malay kids O: their mom came, and we all... drove to somewhere i think <.< blah i woke up :\ dreams are meant to be enjoyed ourselves x) Samuel
i dreamt pirates kor and i were in my room the lights were on and we're on my bed some kind of postman came in and...... dunnoe said what but he talked about leakage leakage is a term in human geographie which i've been learning O: before that, pirates kor was at his lanshop or something and we were playing maple we're at some kind of phonie map O: with powerful monsters something like thanatos but it's not i died 3 times lah -_-'l| but interestinglie, my % was 97 when i scrutinised it for a while there, i forgot about my dreams -.- i dreamt i was in montfort junior school... i guess i kinda sneaked in O: i came from the direction of the librarie...... i saw the courtyard had people playing hopscotch but this version of hopscotch is different from last time we play de :x the boi had to hop to his right with some kind of farnie action then he threw his key to his left i think, then hop back interesting O: how time changes things~ and people, too
then i had a sudden adventurism coming on decided to sneak into the toilet O: :\ i was wearing my school uniform LOL sec4 de the securitie guards not good de, never noticed me. ahh...... the good old toilet with noone inside but i had to make sure so i crept down and saw ONE LEG man...... i think someone's waiting to catch me red-handed i guess i wanted to leave but the door suddenlie opened and inside was....................... mr samuel lim? aiya, i can't remember :\
I ALSO DREAMT that i drove my father's car damn cool! i could reallie drive it, and well too! ;D abit like GTA... LOL and i rmb-ed i asked my classmates if they wanted a lift from somewhere... they ignored me can -.- i'm so ignored in class~ but when this dream was coming to an end, i couldnt reallie control the car O: started banging @@ i so wanna drive a car too, like u ;D and i woke up~ LOL i woke up when the postman dream ended it was 12pm O:
then i went out~ and realised my maple has been on for 14hours :x then mom cooked marcaroni~ yum
i gotta say that i've been catching up O: relativelie well o_O haha, x) i'm such a smartass LOL i wonder if i dreamt of meeting 스팁엔, but i still love you x) Samuel
been sleeping the past few days LOL dreaming nightmares
i dreamt that i was having some exam :\ the place was a little hotel-like mr joseph sim was the invigilator O:
then i was like having some kind of trouble so i went out of the room and walked around O: think i went into some dark toilet... heng i nvr do anything coz people went inside <.<
blah.
then another dream i dreamt bellerina and 스팁엔 were together then he was so close by but i just didnt dare to look at him lest he punch me i went up to my hotel room, something like a hotel in bangkok i saw them walk outside
on wednesday, sammel and i went to pasir ris to meet yanyan, joya and cyrus ;D joya so nice sia, treated me manhattan fish market =x tastes damn delicious walao yanyan del-ed my photo LOL then we over there joke joke joke then decided to go her house ;diao sammel brought his arcade coupons in vain ;eeks
weeeee~ they damn noisie can ;eeks then we finallie reached her house~ played audi~ LOL i played crazie taxi ;eeks so fun then we passed hanwei's love partie LOL x2~ ;yay
we went to compasspoint to eat i was feeling......................... ;___; then joya verie nice ;D bought me long john silverrrrrr yum yum ;D but then they keep on giving me ;___; i too much to finish le ;__;
went home~ zzzzzzzzzzz slept till next morning ;D
THURSDAYYYYYYY < DDDDDDD
woke up at 7++ or something then grace and i left the house :x it was some splash outing ;D LOL we took mrt down to harbourfront... alot of people can shocked LOL
we walked around~ grace and i went into the toilet then went out LOL
then we went to harbourfront centre ;diao macdonalds meet them ;luv the cashier is. sissie or something <.< erxin si le weeeeeeeeeee~ got yanyan, sammel and joya and two people =x huanyuan and chincai (according to yaya) LOL got grace ice milo ;luv
we walked to the monorail ;D LOL ;luv
took the monorail~ lalala
i rmb sherlyn mei and i took it last year then we sit to and fro alot of times LOL
well~ i was hopping around with the volleyball :s LOL ;shy then we walked onto the sand~ so hot can LOL i was like doing the samuel walk~
then the chincai found a vacant court so we went there ;D played volleyball~ LOL SO FUN CAN i think i whack till my hand...... pain pain ;___; we walked around~ enjoyed the sea breeze ;D LOL volleyball huanyuan looks like a hybrid of two of my schoolmates ;dan LOL sammel mouth verie big :x people wear tweetie bird like a bun also must exclaim i play volleyball till... wan faint so tired ;zzz LOL :s
then our drinks came~ mua LOL volleyballllllllllllllllllllllll got angmoh play with yaya and huanyuan LOL then i went to look for yanyan ;dan blah. then we all took the bus back LOL so cool~ i was like sleeping on the bench wake up my neck pain lah they went to bathe :x
hais. took the monorail back to vivocitie :x we went to subway!!!!! YUMMIE my sis and i had problems with ordering ;hurt so complex can LOL yum yum yum yum then yanyan nothing to do so she called lailers and we decided to meet him :x then say byebye to joya's pengyou~
went to the cathay LOL lailers ;eeks i dunnoe lor i walked into the crowd like idiot then walk out -_-'l| LOL then we went to restroom O: then two gals came in O.O dunnoe them lah~
then my phone ring ring or rather vibrate :x ms kim from the nus extension sms-ed me to meet her ;diao so i replied to say i could meet her later so i met her later :x we went to J CUBE which is the lan which took over pcbunk's space
then we walked around there~ onlie one person play audi lor and it's percival the bi ;D LOL ;dan
then near 5.30 i faster chiong to nus extension then i very nervous LOL the feeling damn shiok~ nan de feel so nervous :x
hello, i'm looking for ms kim kim ji min LOL then i was led to her ;shy then i met her LOL
OH MY GGGGGGGGGG 안녕하세요! 안녕하세요! LOL then i replied ;diao so paiseh can LOL then began my oral test i seriouslie. dont understand what's shes saying ;___; i kept on smiling (: LOL :::::xxxxxxxx ;___; so hard can i forget alot of thangs Dx
i could replie a few lah O: :\ so hard lor ;__; then she asked why i wanted to learn korean... i was thinking... thinking... ...... 맛있어요 then she gave a surprised face LOL then i ....................... ;___; then she said korean is delicious LOL ;_____; it was sposed to be 채미있어요 which means fun ;D kay, then she suggested i go level two ;D ;yay if too difficult, i should approach the staff to transfer to level one LOL then i registered~ waited damn long for the receptionist to respond i stood there like a foooool LOL :x
went to J cube coz joya and fwens there ;D they playing then yaya let me play coz she feeling abit ;hurt so i played ;D i chained x10++ for Diet LOL ;D so fun 1.1m ;D totallie owned laobu and yanyan LOL :x then holykun came ;D ;yo then we fb-ed ;___; so suayyyy ;___;
we played till 8+ :x yay~ LOL damn fun :x they cant win me in br ;mua tralala~
then we went home O: lailers took north south line while yanyan took train to outram then the 4 of us took to hougang :x
walked home~ sibei sian LOL
then sammel played maple :x and he pissed my sister off ;swea LOL sammel tsk tsk
was on phone with ped then i dozed off... ;___; too tired le muacks
woke up :x then slept again ;diao ................................ today damn tired lah. i slept a few times
;___; i think my herpes zosters gonna come back ): oh yea, i cried just now ;___; sparklie eyes ;D 心痛 x(
spiderman was lost because of some reasons but he was found about 18hours later drowning in the drainpipe
i reached out my hand into the bloodie deep pipe to pick him up omg my hand stank like _________ and he looked very screwed and he was shivering like mad .....................................................
i had dreamt O: it was something like an iso-splash outing it was like at plaza singapura but it wasnt there were like spongebob and friends trying to laugh chewing gums off the bridge before this but the police found out and we were all gonna get arrested so joya and i walked from that overhead bridge continuouslie down the street evading the police and the stalls were starting to sell things which taunt us chewing gum or something, maybe milkshake
we walked............ even in dark secluded places and we reached the end, we had to get back O: coz joya said we were being followed then i saw a busstop and suggested we take a bus so we went to a busstop...... and joya said she had no money O: there was some blind malay woman who had a lot of coins... she spilled them and the one following us took one i tried to speak to her in malay "kamu bolehkah 'see'?" her eyes were wide open damn noob lah the one following us tried to grab my wallet and i shouted at him he went away he looked like the guy who worked at hougang superbowl
then the bus came and we boarded i dumped my hell lot of coins into the coin box then joya tapped her ezlink >.> and the busdriver nvr dispense any ticket lor. asshole we rode...... there were people smoking in the bus -_- passing by some place we've walked past before i saw the same woman there and i saw an old woman who didnt wear her bra -.- and her shirt was like lifted up
and i woke up with some oil crap on my face and some dirtie crap stuck in my right eye which i cant remove
been playing maple lor. lvl 28 le and i haven't pq-ed ;__; play server e~
before i forget again, lemme blog about my dreams.
i dreamt i was invited to some partie by charmaine O: whos galv's wife LOL :x in the partie were some people like albus dumbledore well, and other harrie pottie professors kay, can't rmb much :\ i did meet kevin didi :x who mite have looked like kelvin o_O
whenever i dream i'm going to somewhere in msia, there'll always be a TRAIN railway train to msia :\ so cool *-* like hogwarts express LOL
oh yes, in that harrie pottie dream, i was to invite someone to a partie o_O and i shouted someone's name _________ _____ and he was there O: blah =x
all these dreams would not have been possible without watching harrie potter and the half-blood prince today which i find interesting =o the dream got some Slug Club partie. and invited people were sposed to take someone along :x so much similaritie :@
kay, i didnt sleep for 24hours +++ i was damn f-ing tired zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :s now onlie had 7 hours of sleep
now dont know what to do :\
oh yea, ytd i cycled to punggol park and it was darn hot bloodie mosquitoes then weiren called my phone and we chatted while i single-handedlie rode to joya house downstairs ;___;
a few things happened ;___; due to inertia, i flipped off the bike and rolled on the grass coz i couldnt steer stablie with one hand but no worries, i'm ironman
i also sat on a chair of water ;___; unknowinglie ;__;
struggled home ~_~
then played with weiren korkor =D jurassic park survivor LOL and YAY, we completed it =D
just had some pineapple rice u.u and chili-prawn crab, noob-bbq-style and some +o( chicken and satay
before i forget, i should post about my dreams first
i just woke up O:
i dreamt at the busstop near dexus there, there were two dwarf hamsters i decided to take them home @_@ then i saw more loitering in the drain so i grabbed as many as i could (5 of them) and ran home O.O maybe not "ran" but floated home
before that, i was at some playground there was a shower beside it ._. i dont know why but i took a shower <.< and i was doing boys' things :B and didnt realise everyone from the flats could see me ._______________________________________. wth man
not before the playground scene was some visage of Herr Flick of the Gestapo (from 'Allo 'Allo!) falling from the skie singing some stupid song while wearing leather underwear o_O then as he was approaching the ground, he opened his umbrella and as expected, the umbrella inverted and he crashed onto dunnoe what
before that was something like GTA...... and there was some kind of devil ITS LIKE ACHMED + LICH ._. playing pokemon cards .______.
okay, that's a fair share of dreams =x
ON TO OUTINGGGGGG it's a combined outing between SPLASH and ~ISOLATION~ =D 8 people went, 4 from iso and 4 from splash
so i was awoken by my bloodbrother @_@ at 11.30+am :x LOL i overslept :x so i quicklie walked to busstop and boarded an 88 D= then sammel call me ask me get down D= so i waited for him......................... then boarded the bus with him =x then my stomach had chemical reaction so as soon as i got down the bus, i rannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn to the mall TnT then i saw them and waved to them LOL @_@
THERE WAS BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD Dx! and the pleasetakeoneforyourwetumbrella belt totallie screwed one of the straps :s
so first up, we took a bus <.< to downtown east xD went to pastamania to eat :B at 1pm =x the waiter there looked like ...... ...............................................................................
hais
we lazed around then decided to go see escape open ornot =o got nebo salesman LOL after crapping for some time, we decided to sign up =o :S
escape xD at 2pm =x
we went to haunted house first LOL HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA @$RTR DHE$^#$twvg dnHFGNBV ;X so scarie and fun LOL HAHAHAHAHA ><
next we sat some flying thang so fun LOL like real
viking! i didn't know so ci ji Couple of the year LOL
afterwards we went to burgerking to rest...... thanks sammel for the drink =x+
then we decided to play the spinning cup thing while joya and bunnie went to queue up for go kart =x it was totallie ;zzz boring -0-
then we went to look for the couple ;x LOL we cut queue =x the guys behind were like .______. :x Sherrise =x Couple of the year :$ My Heart Will Go On~
then finallie our turn xD so SPLASH fam raced first~
;D
then it was OUR TURN :D pim was first, 2nd was sammel, 3rd was nai and 4th was me :x
LOL my car power k =x going up the spiral alreadie overtake sammel and nai LOL xD then slowlie catch up with pim...... going 3rd lap then pim slowed down coz she dunnoe one more lap =x so i overtook her =x HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ITE i won ;shy waited like a few seconds then pim come =x then nai 4th and she knocked sammel who knocked pim LOL ah, i too pro le~ :$
then we sat viking again! eyer people take the end :@
then iso and hw went for haunted house again :B hehehehe xD
SO FUN HAHAHAHAHA >.< LOL AHHHHHHH
we left escape at around 5 =x and went to E!Hub =x went arcade~ play jubeat .___. :B first time playing >< LOL i keep on drinking sammel's pudding milk tea :B slacking at neoprint LOL
soon it was 7++! jobunnya went off =x then the rest of us walked to pasir ris interchange sam and i took bus 88 home =x the rest go take mrt
tired si ren ~_~ slept on the bus ;zzz
reached home and played arena :B out ;cry but it's okay
played dota with weiren korkor :B HAHAHA so fun ><
then played custom game with kyuu he's not bad xD
then went to bed and slept :X
so i woke up =x then played sommore dota with weiren kor xD fun fun fun :B then we played with my bloodbrother =x
play till 5++ then weiren gtg D: so i went to sleep again ~_______~ and i just woke up at 8+ :\
and i dreamt sommore @@ i dreamt my mom died ~_~ and i dreamt i saw :\ freakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmyself
hehe, homework untouched =x and next outing go www! ;D
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Samuel Tan Yuan Han
4th January 1993
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